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@artemis@dice.camp "I don't understand it" <- I think this is what makes it so hard. I don't understand my own task avoidance even when it's happening; I mean sometimes I just get lost, but sometimes I'll be sitting there feeling miserable and not understanding why I can't just get up and do the thing. I'm slowly learning to recognise more realistically when I can and can't do things, and on a good day feel less guilty about the "can't" - but as to why? Often it just feels so stupid.

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[@artemis@dice.camp](https://dice.camp/users/artemis) "I don't understand it" <- I think this is what makes it so hard. I don't understand my own task avoidance even when it's happening; I mean sometimes I just get lost, but sometimes I'll be sitting there feeling miserable and not understanding why I can't just get up and do the thing. I'm slowly learning to recognise more realistically _when_ I can and can't do things, and on a good day feel less guilty about the "can't" - but as to why? Often it just feels _so stupid_.