@NineIsntPrime I mean, that's fair, and you really can't exactly know these things unless you have an established audience with an opinion on it, since, well, writing is quite vague and weird and this kind of thing is hard to pin down
but, idk. folks like Tolkien became wildly successful and given his obsession with linguistics it wouldn't be surprising if he were autistic too. it feels like a lot more authors are autistic than folks realise, and maybe some of the tropes that show up in books are reminiscent of that
not like a few words are gonna make like, what appears to be a lifelong/career-long anxiety go away, but you're at least in good company