Also why am I going in the opposite direction of most people, developing resistance to the meds instead of tolerance.

It's not even been a year for fuck's sake. The gym cannot be the only reason 50mgs is suddenly too much.

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First day on 30mg has been a success. But I can't take it as a norm. It's just one day, first day I'm fine with even nothing at all.

It's the 2nd day in the evening when I notice any difference.

But this is fucked up though, if it happens than gym-free I'm fine with 30mgs and I discovered that GOING to the gym I'm also fine with 30mgs that means I've got 4 pill bottles 83€ each of Elvanse 50mgs that are totally useless for me. That's a 332€ stash.

I mean look at the time and I'm sleepy it's 23:59. That hasn't happened in ages.

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@actuallyadhd interestingly enough 30mg didn't give me a high high.

The question would be? Would they last the whole day because I'm not going to the gym, as my late night theory ? Question 2 would be: will it work?

so far 30mg has only worked when taken on the dead middle of the day. Any other time they gave me anxiety in the evening. But this is with gym while today I'm not going to the gym.

#theories #adhd #medication

IT WORKED!

taking the elavnse pill 2 hours earlier before the time I want to wake up works.

So I took it today at 6:30, immediately fell asleep again and boom, woke up at my target 8:30

After 39 years I CAN FINALLY CONTROL THE TIME I WAKE UP

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...MIGHT BE the perfect dosage for non-gym days. I'm just trying to avoid one nasty side effect: the working memory shortage.

I'm wondering if some miligrams reduction might help expand my working memory. Normally less than 50mgs of Elvanse is bad for everything but that only applies when going to the gym.

If it works then I'll order a 30mg bottle specifically for non-gym days. The issue might be 50mg being too much on non-gym days.

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I have a theory and some spare 30mg pills and I'm going to test my theory.

To begin with, today I did for the first time what my doc told me I could try, to mix Elvanse with medikinet. So when I had this bump midday I had a 10mg Medikinet (I've got all dosages of medikinet) and I feel better now.

But then, my theory is 50mg Elvanse is perfect with gym going days while 30mg Elvanse ...

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This is my rudimentary yet working version of what I call "The Sargent" here https://maikel.dev/living-out-loud-with-adhd-episode-3-elvanse-long-term/ writen in Fish shell. It uses Zenity for GUI stuff and Obsidian daily journals as source of truth.

I haven't cleaned up any code, nor made it elegant in any way since all I wanted was for it to do the job so I could move on, DONE IS BETTER THAN PERFECT.

It might help ADHDers that are coders too.

https://gist.github.com/maikelthedev/9695bcec08f85e36a613c7bcbdc3cd09#file-add-distraction-fish-L691

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@actuallyadhd my brain is fried but here it is.

https://maikel.dev/living-out-loud-with-adhd-episode-3-elvanse-long-term/

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I'm going to call it The Sargent. It'll literally feel the void of not having my inner voice reminding me what I'm doing, while medicated.

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I think I got a new strategy to actually break this weird waking up late cycle that might actually work.

I can't quit Elvanse, I can avoid taking it every day sure, but I can't quit. I have to take a pill at least every 2 and a half days to remain grounded.

But here I'm talking about chunking things to size instead and doing small changes, iteration towards routine perfection, same as I do with the gym or with my diet.

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this year I'm going to VASTLY introduce automation into my daily routine.

the goal is to avoid decision fatigue.
Main unmedicated problem: decision fatigue
Main medicated problem: analysis paralisis

The same I have this code for storing what am I getting distracted with, i'm going to create plenty of other shortcuts and automations AND notifications into my PC and mobile phone to steer me into the right direction everyday.

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#ADHD #neurodivergent #ableism

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then people do not get that you cannot deal with their shite beccause you cannot deal with your own shite. And think you're in a mood.

I'm no tin a mood, my brain is broken today, VERY different. I can't hear you because I cannot concentrate on anything at all. ANYTHING at all. My hearing to you works the same as if I were in a concer of The Strokes and you were talking at normal level.

This rarely happens and when it does, I tell you, just believe it and give me some room, it isn't that hard to understand. No mental illness affects anyone the same every day. Some days are good some days are awful .

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I've forgotten what I was doing so many times this morning that it's taken me 3 hours to move 3 pairs of shoes from Remi's bedroom to the entrance.

3 hours.

The only thing that's different compared to any other day is I woke up and didn't have any tyrosine before my Elvanse. Do I really REALLY spend that much of it that my body needs it to avoid the fucked-up working-memory side effects?

From an external point of view, this is Bennyt Hill / Mr Bean comical levels. From my own perspective, this is Alzheirmer-type levels of concerning.

#ADHD #Tyrosine #Elvanse

I wouldn't say medication has surpressed my ADHD issues, if anything it has change the one I struggle with now.

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I have a shortcut on Hyprland that opens a zenity form asking "what are you wasting your time with now" and runs a fish script that takes my daily obsidian journal (creates one from a template if non existent yet) and adds the sentence I wrote (if any) to my distractions header as an item of a list with the time.

Would that be of anyone interests ?

I find it a lot easier than having to do lots of clicks to just type it while it's in my head. Its enough work that I remember I'm getting distracted

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