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This is how I think, exactly this (first pic)

Except in my head I use the over activated default-mode network to remember each and every one of them with voices on a loop that I can set the same as DeadMau5 with a sampling pad.

It's the same thing just in sound form. I use visuals just to connect the loops as groups, branches, cells hence the TOWN SQUARE metaphor. Imagine the sounds in a tridimensional space that resembles (and yes it is a place) any rectangular town square with the town hall in the centre where the scheduler control who's turn is next.

That's what having these 3 is for me 👇

#adhd #autism #highcognition

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@[email protected] replied · 2 days ago

The GYM is the time I draw that mindmap in my head. It's literally brainstorming tasks considering priorities and work, and I store it exactly as I just described, again, every day.

ELVANSE, destroys the mental construction. So I put it on paper, it's taken me AGES to find the format that could match what I had in my head, the key for me was:

DO NOT
use any
APP
instead
go
ANALOG

This is called externalisation of the cognitive load.

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Maikel 🇪🇺 🇪🇸

@[email protected] replied · 2 days ago

my "trick" or better said "what works for me" for task initiation is to use my imagination and that tree-way of thinking

> Maikel, in a perfect world where you have unlimited energy, how would you solve this problem?

I come with an apparently unfeasible solution.

> Ok, now, what's the minimum task of that plan that you feel absolutely ZERO "task-initiation friction" to do.

If that fails

> What on that plan feels as something FUN that you actually desire to do?

The second option is how I build the routine around the gym. The motivation comes from knowing I can spend 15 minutes under the HOT shower without ...

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Maikel 🇪🇺 🇪🇸

@[email protected] replied · 2 days ago

...worrying about the water or gas bill. I'm a piscis, let alone raised by the sea, I love showers. Gym = shower.

Creating a habit is building backwards from either of those, especially the positive one, if the long showers are the thing that keeps me going to the gym, then reduce friction on everything else.

1. My work-out routines (WKR) are short and spread over many days = easier.
2. My WKR are optimised to workout the least possible and yet get the most results.
3. My WKR are optimised to minimise DOMS (delayed-onset muscle soreness).

That for the positive task-initiation wall BREAKER.

For the...

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Maikel 🇪🇺 🇪🇸

@[email protected] replied · 2 days ago

...negative it's all very different. The minimum tasks gets me there and tasks maintenance is generally NOT one of my executive-disfunction issues. It is when tasks are not sorted my way.

When I sort them, I can measure the emotions of them, and optimise for whatever task/s gives me the most dopamine hit to push the next if that is the hardest or whichever tasks has the least amount of friction if what comes next come be done with little dopamine push.

It's as if you were in Street Fighter (the game below) and you SORT your task FLEXIBLY depending on the energy bar.
Low = do the hit one
High = do the boring one

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Maikel 🇪🇺 🇪🇸

@[email protected] replied · 2 days ago

This is pretty much the default-mode network (rumination), roughly explained on ADHD is overactive/overdeveloped while the prefrontral (motivation, attention) is the messed up.

I just use the rumination to my favour. If my brain isn't ever going to be quiet, why not control the subjects it talks about?

Here the high-cognition is key, I don't think I'd be able to do this orchestration without the extra bandwidth.

Is not that Elvanse fucks my working memory, is that Elvanse shuts (methylphenidate even worse) what I've been using as working memory. Hence why for me it feels like going from MSDOS to Bash.

@actuallyadhd

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Maikel 🇪🇺 🇪🇸

@[email protected] replied · 2 days ago

I still need to figure 2 issues of which I've solved one, yet not the most sscary one, just one that could fuck my EVERY love relationship. Elvanse + being HIV+ give me E.D. I fixed it with Tadalafilo (Cialis) 5mg daily. I'm literally THE VERY SAME as before 2021. Sleeping rock hard as I used to and with total control of both up and down torpedo pointing.

The 2nd issue is the scary one, the short-term memory issues. After very long, very very long and deep research and contrasting papers and anecdotal experiences (because let's face it Elvanse is fucking OBSCURE as a medication, most people and studies are not....

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